BUDAPEST - WIEN - BUDAPEST

It's done...we have our tickets, our friends and families know, we are going to take flight to visit my birthplace.
The cradle of western classic
Cakes in layers, architecture in golden means and friends I have had since I was a teenager.

My young family's new home and den addition.
My old friends are moving again and their son and daughter's new life crossing ours.

Budapest, a gift from Gurumayi, my friendship there and the warm welcome, satsang and art connection.

My vision is to connect, to see, to be seen and allow for the fine network of friendship and goodwill to create a charmed life under grace.

HARVEST MOON

My birthday is coming up, and I have several...

Each important shift in my life is a birth of sorts and this week a year ago, I have put down self medication and went fully sober, with the intention to stay sober for the remainder of this life.

A lot of help came to this birth and new life on a daily basis.
I am deeply grateful.

My physical birth day is coming up fast, at the time begotten with severe affliction, eclipses and darkness...now ushered in, is the golden part of my life path...in golden company and again, all the help I need to keep growing (UP) toward the Light.

Co creating family & community one day at the time.

Share your thoughts....and blessings.

FULL MOON AND WHAT AM I SEEING...

...auspicious fine rain moistening the air...cleaning and clearing the particles that make breathing so difficult.
To draw a deep clean breath is one of the most joyful experiences in this body.
Movement...Art...Leisure....Food.

Alone time at my new home.
Crying deeply every night.
This is not what I wanted.

Understanding what it is that I do want.
This morning during meditation I saw it:
"Just ask Jules...articulate....ask for what you want.
You can have it...promise. You just have to ask."
Nicely.
Relaxed.
Knowing that God hears every thought and heart's desire.

Pray for those you love and left behind.
For the miracle of having Dawn as my daughter.
Golden Dawn.

Finding out about "abandonment depression'... triggered by experiences alike to what 'happened' as an infant, locked into the cells of the body....which is why no matter how 'old' we are, it's locked insdie and can be healed only...HOW?
I gotta know.

It has destroyed so many relationships and fine connections.
Flashbacks of terror...of being alone...sad and needing a kind word.
A hug.

Ouch.

Forgetting all the connections that went before.
Loosing all perspective.
Flooded with primal fear.

There has to be a way.
This is what I pray....
I want to have these locked up patterns released from my body and mostly: mind.
Once and for all.
Until then, I need to be able to drop it like a coin, like a hat, like a hot potato.

Just drop it.
And be free.
At leisure with my art & favorite foods & peeps.

127 Hours at the MVFF

What a movie....I LOVED it.
Danny Boyle managed to make a super difficult subject, Aaron R, trapped in a Colorado canyon for 127 hours, having to cut off his own arm, in order to get out (really, true story) into an amazingly dynamic and uplifting film.
In my opinion.
The best part in my experience, he is the kindest most open and accessible super star director, I have ever had lunch with.
I got to go to the film festival reception and screening by sheer grace and family connections.
God's ways are mysterious and great.
I am grateful.

Can one Love a phone?

It's my new phone, I have to admit, I never wanted to love such a thing...especially with all the Apple heads around...iThis - iThat...well, no matter.

I love my new iPhone 4.
Here are some pics I took in Bolinas with the lovely group of ladies in fur: Lola, Yoda, Tilly (Matilda) and Mabeline.
Here is the coolest of camera features: you can touch on an icon and the camera turns to face you and you can take pics of your self and your group without awkwardly turning and shooting blind.
Really.

Keeps going: it works with HD video as well...will post as soon as I have a good one.
For now, enjoy Tom and I on a walk in the hills.

By the way, I cook for the fur-girls...for reals.
Love it...there is nothing more rewarding than cooking some meat, totally plain, and having these wonderful beings slurp  it up like it's the most delicious fare they have ever tasted.


Mabeline is the English Bulldog and is a 6months old puppy.
It's hilarious how bullyish she is and wanting to be a lapdog at the same time...she has great humor and charm too...to think that she was a rescue...they were going to put her down because they thought she was deaf. Not even. Selective hearing perhaps yes. You should see her listen when she is called to eat or play.