FULL MOON SHINING

Once again, it's harvest time.
What we sow at new moon, we reap when it's full.
This time I get to see what my relationships are all about.
With my Self, my family, my friends, my fellowship, my sangham.

So much to be grateful for.
So much to make effort toward.
So much to give and receive.

Life is full.
Yes, and its all the same moon just a few minutes apart.

Thank you for being in my life!

Confusion

Listen to what your friends and family say....and then consult your astrologer.
Meanwhile, always listen to your Heart, Jules, it speaks the truth.
Every time.

It's in my power center, the third chakra, where it hurts.

My Heart is wide and so big, it includes all I know, people, animals, plants, rocks, planets, gods and goddesses.

So, while I walk the 12 steps to sanity and reunion with the golden light of my child self, confusion is on a rampage. I give away my power and energy because I don't know how to give it to myself.
People will take it...of course. Freebies..yay.
Then I fell resentful...when it was my own insecurity and fears that said: here, take it, I don't know what to do with all this beauty, kindness, creativity and love..take it and use it for what you are all about.
When I look at the result I freak out.
My beautiful gifts in dirty unkempt places.
My gifts laying on the floor like debris.
My inspirations siting around unused and rotting away unloved.

It's my shortcoming to not love and know myself.
It's my character defect to seek love from people who can't give it the way I need it.

God, my Guru and my Self can love and give, create and establish the structure of care, beauty and aim for my life to one of right action, partnership and tribal strength.
Another day in gratitude.
Another day counting my blessings and friends.
Another day honoring my needs and having them met by life herself.

IMAGES OF SPRING AND DANCE

Mid March and life is unfurling on step 4 of the 12 that lead to the good life.
Admitting my character defects to another human being...writing down which shortcomings have created resentment...shining light on the store house of dark.
Sweet heavens, so much pain and twisted forms of unrequited love, grotesquely  begging for empathy.
Finally seen and in good hands.
God's hands...whatever my understanding of the great creative power that has created the Universe is at any given moment in the sequence of time....those hands.
Companionships aligning to safe proximity. Sailing toward the great destination of serenity, courage and wisdom.
Expectations of integrity and cleanliness directed only at my own sweet self.
Getting healed, getting strong and getting simple...all of my Being.
Dance sweetly...serve wholeheartedly...Love unexpectedly.

Another day in prayer to be whole.

art opening at the firehouse north

Accidentally posted this on my personal instead of art blog...so I added some personal pics also.

March 2010 a new beginning

In the San Francisco bay area spring comes right after Christmas it seems and around my daughter's birthday the entire earth here is sprung with color and fragrance. Huge billowing clouds under bright blue sky or deep moist fog with rain showers rainbows and all the excitement of birds in the air.
Rolling green hills, mustard fields and gigantic magnolia blossom tress everywhere.
Even though, my family doesn't live here, I am to be content with my boyfriend and a huge open field of possibilities in the arts.
Art of movement as in yoga and dance, art of light as in photography, culinary and healing art as in personal cooking for friends and making jewelry out of precious stones, color and form as in clay play and painting.
All the ways to express what is inside my own heaven and hell, my own piece of inner sky.
Learning to be Human, applying all the teachings of my Master, a daily check in.
This day, I am OK...today I live in accordance to what I know is beneficial.
Today, I curb the impulse to hurl my own pain at the person who loves me and is close.
Today, I love and heal my self, take care of all the wounds and fractures in my 7 bodies.
Today I am whole, embrace the totality of being.
In Hungarian, to be healthy is the same word as to being Whole.
EGESZ...EGESZSEGEDRE...to your health! To your Wholeness.
Your Holiness.
All this on an ordinary day: TODAY.